Devious Journal Entry

Three years to fall and turned into a fool.

Three years to realize that the world is so full of bullshit, like 'common sense', 'never stop trying', and 'love is sacrifice'. Hell, you sacrifice because you love, not the reverse.

Three years to realize that to be in DeviantArt, you must be defiant.

Three years to know that exploration, a continuous one indeed, is needed.

Three years to realize that I should have trusted my closest friends.

Three years to realize that hidden agendas and ambitions are everywhere, though not omnipresent like God does.

To realize that the religion I was born into is meant for me, and that I am to be a Catholic. And that I'm meant to believe everything The Church teaches.

To realize that someone can be truly genius one hour, and truly foolish the next hour.

To realize that we are not impeccable.

Three years had been horrible, but at the end, I have prevailed through the help of my parents, Glossy Heroes - which is Hitman System, even though I am not yet part of them - and artists like Sudjiwo Tedjo.

And there is no more "you can't trust anyone."

No more "there is no true friend."

No more doubting which leads into destruction.

For I have stood. To withstand. To fight. To protect myself and everyone who wants to be helped.

For I am Kevin Reiner. Even more.

I have partially found myself, and I am going to join Hitman System in a week.

I will be no more mere Kevin Reiner.

I will have brothers.

I have reactivated myself in Wadokai Karate-do.

I have learned how to play drum, and I'm improving. I'm even writing a song.

I have walked into the right direction. 

Fear have been ignored.

Whatever happens, happens.

It's Me. My best self.

I strived toward it. Fought for it. Stumble one - two times. But I rise again. Just like Batman. Because I will die for what's right... if necessary. 

Ok, time to stop. It's too mellow...